What
If
Brian took
the strangling too
far.
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Justin lounged on the bed while Brian got dressed to go to
Brian, that guy we did last night he could have been the killer. We
didnt know anything about him. He could have done anything to
us.
That woulda been hot. Brian climbed up on the bed planting his
feet on either side of Justins hips. He nudged Justin with his foot
and he rolled over looking up at him. The first time you came here
you didnt know anything about me. I could have done anything to
you.
Justin smiled confidently I was pretty sure you were going to fuck
me.
Brian kneeled down slowly and sensually. Staring at Justin he starts stroking
his stiffening cock through his tight black jeans. You came here not
knowing what was going to happen. That was part of the thrill. Brian
leans over him rubbing him through his cargo pants. He murmured Its
what made you hard. Your hard right now just thinking about it. The danger,
the excitement, he whispers.
Justin growls on the brink of cuming fuck me!
Brian ran his lips along Justins torso making him pant. He placed an
open mouth kiss on his neck. Brian lunged at Justin startling him a bit.
Brian roughly grabs his throat and starts to squeeze.
What if I started to strangle you?
Justin didnt know what to do. Hed never seen Brian this way before.
He was starting to scare him. He tried to remain calm and make a joke.
Id rather you choked me with your dick he said nervously.
Brian hovered over his face. He whispered you could be dead right
now.
Brian tongued Justins open mouth. Justin gasped for air he was having
trouble breathing. He grabbed Brians thighs and squeezed but the pressure
still remained on his throat. Justin couldnt get enough air to fill
his lungs. He knew he would pass out soon. Why was Brian doing this to him?
One tear slid down his face. He managed one last word before the room went
black.
Brian.
Justins hands slipped down Brians thighs and flopped on the bed.
Brian looked at him and quickly released his throat. His neck was already
starting to bruise. He checked to make sure Justin was still breathing. Brian
ran to the kitchen to grab a bottle of water. Brian cradled him in his arms
and pored a little water on his face.
Come on Sunny boy open your eyes. Let me see those baby blues of yours.
You can do it baby.
Justin gasped for breath and started coughing. Brian rubbed slow soothing
circles down his back. When the coughing fit subsided he handed Justin the
water bottle to drink. The cool water soothed his burning throat. Justin
jerked away from his touch a flash of emotions played over his face fear,
shock, anger and betrayal.
Justin backed away from Brian. How could you do that to me? His
voice was almost a whisper. You hurt me!
Justin Brian took a step forward.
Justin retreated quickly grabbing up his shoes and a shirt that was on the
floor. Just stay away from me Brian, just dont even touch
me.
I didnt mean for it to go that far. I was trying to teach you
a lesson.
Justin quickly dressed and grabbed his jacket and back pack.
Justin, where are you going?
Away from you, I dont feel safe here. The one person I
lo.. the one person I care
about more than anything hurt me. Youre no better than
As soon as Justin left Brians hands began to tremble. The enormity
of what he had just done along with Justins words hit him. He ran to
the bathroom and threw up everything that was in his stomach. Tears streamed
down his face as he sat on the cold marble floor. He didnt blame Justin
if he ever forgave him. Brian wondered where Justin would go for the night,
and if hed be safe.
Justin walked a block away from Brians loft then began to pace. His
options were very limited on where to spend the night. He couldnt go
to his Moms or Debs, theyd kill Brian. Daphne was out of
the picture. Lindsay would always be willing to give him the couch. If she
saw what Brian did to him shed try to keep Gus away from him. Brian
loved his son dearly. He couldnt do that to him, no matter what he
was feeling right now. By default that only left one other person he could
think of.
Emmett came to the door wearing a t shirt that said Its good
to be the Queen and pajama bottoms. Hey baby, come on in.
Emmett noticed Justin had been crying. Let me guess you and the big
bad wolf had another fight. Well come sit down and tell auntie Em all about
it.
Justin sank down on the nausea inducing orange sofa. He shrugged off his
jacket.
Emmett got a good look at his neck and gasped. Oh
my baby! His hand fluttered to his mouth. Who hurt you?
Does Brian know? When Emmett looked at his face he instantly knew.
Brian did this to you! Emmett gasped.
Can I stay here just for tonight? I just cant stay at the loft
right now.
Oh of course you can baby. Michaels at Bens so he wont
be here. Itll be just us girls. Well have a gay ol
time.
Justin smiled a little at Emmetts antics. Emmett Id like
for this to just stay between the both of us. I know what he did was wrong
but still I dont want to get him in trouble with anyone.
Emmett patted him on the shoulder. Ill not say a peep but if
he keeps it up this nelly queen is going to bitch slap him into next week.
I cant believe he would physically hurt you. Hes always been
so protective of you.
Well he said he didnt mean it, that he got carried away. I believe
him I just cant be around him right now.
Do you want something to eat? Im pretty sure
theres some Ben and Jerrys in the freezer,
soul food for the lovelorn.
Im kinda tired Em. I just want to sleep.
Alrighty Ill just get you a pillow and some blankets.
Emmett fussed over Justin tucking him in and kissing him goodnight. When
Emmett left Justin let the tears fall freely.
Justin had to work the lunch shift at the diner. He had to borrow a turtle
neck sweater from Emmett. Thank God it was still winter. Justin tensed when
Brian came in. He figured he had a fifty fifty chance of him showing up.
He really didnt think he could deal with Brian right now.
Brian sat down at the counter observing Justin. Except for the missing Sunshine
smile he seemed ok. When he walked past Brian snagged the hem of his apron.
He didnt want to grab his wrist or touch him causing him to freak out.
We need to talk.
Im busy.
What time do you get off? Ill come pick you up.
Youre assuming that Ill even go with you. Justin
really looked at Brian. He had dark circles under his eyes like he hadnt
slept well. Brian was giving him his wounded puppy dog look that was quickly
melting Justins heart. You can pick me up at nine. Can I get
you anything?
Just coffee.
Justin handed over the cup. Their fingers brushed each other. When Justin
didnt jerk away Brian took that as a sign of hope.
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Brian picked Justin up at the diner at nine. The trip back to the loft was
made in silence. They both stood there in the middle of the room staring
at each other.
Frustrated Brian ran a hand through his hair. I never meant to hurt
you Justin only scare you a little, to teach you a lesson. Youre too
trusting and if you trust the wrong person you could get hurt. Obviously
I did a great job proving that. I fucked up.
Justin sighed I know you didnt really mean it. It just really
freaked me out. Youve never hurt me before. Youve always taken
care of me and protected me. Youve never forced me to do anything I
didnt want to do. If anything like this happens again thats it
Im done and Im gone. I will not put up with shit like that. Im
not gonna start being your punching bag.
Brian nodded solemnly fair enough.
In case youre wondering I stayed at Emmetts last night.
He made a promise not to tell anyone. So it happened, its done, its
finished. Lets just put it behind us and move on ok?
Brian held him in his arms breathing in his wonderful scent. Id
like that.
Justin rested his head against Brians strong chest listening to his
heart beat. Im sorry I compared you to
Brian kissed the small scar on his temple. Forget it we're moving on
remember.
They both stripped and got under the soft duvet. Brian was surprised when
Justin cuddled right up to him resting his head on his chest. He wrapped
an arm around him. With his boy in his arms where he
belonged Brian could sleep easy.
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