NO MORE SAD SONGS
SONG FIC - CLAY AIKEN NO MORE SAD
SONGS
Justin and I were sitting on a bench in the park when
I heard that damn violin. Hurt flashed across his face and I swear I saw
a fucking tear. I still can't believe he fell for his bullshit in the first
place but he did and I'm his best friend so I just tried my best to support
his decision.
Ok I did remind him of Brian on an hourly basis, but
I love Justin and I could see that Ethan was just a lying little bastard
who would break his heart. And look, I was right.
Unfuckingfortunatly I was fucking right.
I tried to distract him, but he shook me off, like
he was possessed. When he stood and walked away, I followed him. There was
no way in Hell I was going to let him go through this without me. Besides
I had to make sure he didn't cave and go running back to the little
asshole.
I stayed a few steps behind him and watched him approach
Ethan with my breath held. I had no idea what was about to happen. And I
never expected what I heard coming out of his mouth.
He walked straight over to the crowd that was gathered
around the fiddler and pushed his way through until he stood face to face
with the man who had lied, cheated and broke his heart. Ethan went pale and
dropped his bow. I couldn't help but laugh, it was like he'd seen a
ghost.
"Justin, what are you doing here?" I could hear the
hope in his voice and I wanted to punch him really hard right then. Luckily
Justin did what I couldn't.
"I came to tell you something." Justin looked around
at the interested crowd and took a deep breath before continuing. "It has
to be this way, I have to do this exactly like this."
Justin removed his scarf, the one I knew Ethan had given him and dropped
it at his feet. "This is the way, That I state my
independence. That I'm no longer connected to your memory."
"Justin, don't do this, not here. Let's go sit down
and talk."
"No Ethan it has to be this way. This is the day that
I'm making my defection. That I claim back the affection
that you stole from me."
"Justin, please. You know I never meant to hurt you."
I almost felt sorry for the bastard myself. He seemed so sincere. Thankfully
Justin didn't buy his lies. "Justin, baby, your
my muse."
"I'm not your fucking muse. YOU are your fucking muse,
Ethan. I used to hear your music so loud But its
so low. You're just another face in the crowd, I'm letting you know."
Justin picked up the fallen bow and dropped it in the violin case before
continuing. "I won't let you affect me anymore. I've wasted enough tears
on you, you aren't worth it."
No more sad
songs,
I"m
letting it go now,
Switched off switched on,
I'm letting you know,
you turned out the light.
I'm gonna be alright without....
Turn the radio off.
No more sad songs.
"I'm going to be alright, Ethan. Today I remind you
of what you lost, not what I lost. These are the words to describe all your
offenses. You said love and love past tense and then you let it
go."
"Justin you don't mean that, baby, you're hurting
right now. I love you. I love you Justin."
"Haven't you heard, You are
no longer respected, you are formally rejected from the one you hurt. I used
to have the longing to hear what was in your heart, But now it seems I'm
over the fear of this falling
apart."
I watched him standing there so bravely letting go
of what he had thought he shared with this man before him and I loved him
so much.
No more sad
songs,
I'm letting it go now,
Switched off switched on,
I'm letting you know,
you turned out the light.
I'm gonna be alright without...
Turn the radio off.
No more sad songs
No more sad songs.
I used to have the longing to hear what was in your
heart,
But now it seems I'm over the fear of this falling
apart.
No more sad songs,
I'm letting it go now,
Switched off switched on,
I'm letting you know,
No more sad songs,
I'm letting it go now,
Switched off switched on,
I'm letting you know,
you turned out the light.
I'm gonna be alright without...
Turn the radio off.
No more sad songs
No more sad songs
No more sad songs
No more sad songs.
Without another word he pushed back through the crowd
and took my hand as we crossed the street. Turning the corner we came face
to face with his past and his future wrapped
into the beautiful body of Brian Kinney. And in that instant his face lit
up and I knew he was finally happy and as soon as he was back in Brian's
arms everything would be okay again.
THE END......