The Way It Should Have Happened…

Chapter 2

"Bella?"

"Yes, Esme, I need your help." Bella replied.

"Carlisle told me the situation, there really is only one thing to be done," she said, the sadness clear in her voice. "I'm sorry."

"I'm having this baby," Bella declared.

"It's forbidden. There really is nothing we can do," Esme stated.

"Well, then, there's something I can do. I won't come home. I'll disappear where none of you can find me and I'll do this myself," she said, petulantly.

"Bella, do you think we don't want to help you? We thought the legends were just that, legends. None of us thought this was possible. Our kind cannot have children."

"But I'm not one of your kind, not yet and I will have it or I don't come home," Bella repeated.

"Bella, you will break Edward's heart," Esme pleaded.

"When I survive and he sees the baby, it will be okay," Bella said, hoping she was right.

There was silence from the other end and then Esme sighed.

"Very well, I will help you and I'll try to convince Carlisle, also. Come home now," she said and Bella closed the phone as Edward came out on the proch.

"We need to hurry," he said, picking up their suitcases. He tried to smile at her but it didn`t reach his eyes. "Let's go."

The boat ride was torture, the heaving waves matching her heaving stomach. Bella held her head over the side, violently ill and then lay still, hoping the rolling in her stomach would cease.

"Look how ill you are already," Edward said, gently wiping her face with a handkerchief. "I can't stand to see you this way."

"Edward, I'm fine. It's a part of having a baby and woman have been doing that for thousands of years," she croaked at him, voice rough from sickness.

"Normal woman with normal babies, not killing monsters that should not exist. I never thought you wanted children. You were so sure you wanted to be what I am, what my family is and we do NOT have children," he said.

"I don't want children. I want OUR child. It's different, you know it is," she insisted.

"I don't know that at all," he said, dejectedly as the boat finally arrived at the dock.

The ride to the airport was terrifying as Edward drove so fast that the scenery was spinning by. Bella closed her eyes, trying to keep the nausea at bay and sleep overtook her.

"We're here," Edward's voice woke her. She was stunned by the flat dead sound of his words, his usually melodic voice subdued by his worry and guilt.

They reached the plane with minutes to spare and settled into their first class seats. .

"Is there anything I can do for you?" the flight attendant suggestively asked Edward.

He scowled at the woman. Didn't she see that his wife wasn't feeling well? He looked over at Bella, pale and disheveled, and felt an agony of guilt. He had to find a way to make her understand.

"Bella," Edward softly began, taking her hand in his. "Please can we talk about it?"

"Not about an abortion. I'm having it," she stubbornly said.

"Please, I can't risk you. It's too dangerous. We should have waited until after the transformation. I thought they were just legends. Had I known . . . "

"Edward, I'll be fine and if not, you can change me. Don't you see? It's a part of you, how can you ask me to kill it?"

"Do you think it's what I want?" he asked, voice rising, raking his hands through his hair. "I'd like nothing more than for us to have a child but this is a monster, a creature that will tear you apart from the inside, that will kill you and if by some miracle you survive the birth, then it will kill you to feed and they're uncontrollable."

"Not our child, Edward," she said. "Our child wouldn't do that, I know."

"When the Volturi hear about it, and they will, they'll come and destroy us all. Immortal children are strictly forbidden, do you understand? If you and it survive the birth, the Volturi will kill all of us. All of us, Jasper and Alice, Rosalie and Emmett. They have no part in this. How can you be so selfish and childish?" he asked, temper flaring.

"Selfish and childish? Selfish and childish?" Bella answered. "I'll tell you who's selfish and childish. You are!" She knew this was in fact a selfish and childish response but she didn't care. She was going to have their baby and he'd better get used to the idea. If it killed her, he could change her and with eight adults to guard it, even if the baby was a wild killing creature, they'd be able to contain it, wouldn't they? She didn't pause to consider that she would also be an uncontrollable newborn who might need watching.

Bella, who had never wanted children, suddenly wanted this child more than anything and she knew once she had it Edward would love it as much as she already did. He was just scared of losing her. She felt a flutter of movement in her abdomen. Already?

Edward was watching her, a look of anguish plain on his face. They'd never spoken so harshly to one another. This was all his fault for loving her when he knew he shouldn't have and giving in to her demand that their first time be when she was still human. All his fault. He had to make her see, to understand, he had to. Maybe Carlisle and Esme would be able to help him.

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