Coming Out

Chapter 19

The rest of the weekend went by quickly and Justin found himself at work on Monday morning, trying to decide what to do about Brian’s birthday. Saturday was the big day and Justin still didn’t know what to get him. Walking down the hallway lost in thought, Justin literally ran right into Cynthia coming from the copy room.

“Justin. What’s the matter? You were so lost in thought you didn’t even see me coming,” Cynthia asked, concerned about her friend.

“Sorry, Cynthia. I was trying to think of what I could get Brian for his birthday. It’s this Saturday and I want to do something nice for him. We had a really rough week and I want to show him how much I care,” Justin replied, hoping that maybe Cynthia had some ideas.

“Why don’t you let me ask Marty if you can use his cabin? I’m sure he wouldn’t mind. You could go there for the weekend. Living with your parents has to put a damper on your love life. It would be so romantic,” Cynthia replied with a sigh. She couldn’t help but wish she could find someone to do romantic evenings with.

“I don’t know Cyn. It sounds great, but I don’t know if using my boss’s cabin for a romantic evening with my boyfriend would be a good idea,” Justin said, feeling a little apprehensive at the thought of Ryder knowing about him and Brian.

“I think it’s a great idea. I’m sure Marty won’t mind. In fact, if you want, I could tell him we are all going up and I’ll just stay at Daphne’s so he won’t know it’s just the two of you. Daphne and I have gotten very close since your barbeque so I know she won’t mind. She stayed at my house last week and we had a girl’s night, watching sappy movies and doing facials. We’ll have fun and you’ll have a wonderful weekend. I’ll go talk to Marty now and ask him. I’ll drive up with you on Friday and we’ll set the whole place up. Brian works till 5:00 and you and I both have off. You can pick Brian up from work and go right to the cabin. It’ll be great!” Cynthia exclaimed, excited for her friends.

“Thanks, Cynthia. That would be perfect. Let me know what Ryder says and I’ll start thinking about what I’ll need to get” Justin replied, feeling hopeful about making Brian’s birthday something special.

“Okay. I’ll let you know in a bit. Don’t worry. I’m sure it will be fine. I’ll meet you in the lobby in an hour and we can go get lunch while we make our plans. I’m so excited for you two.” Cynthia laughed as she went in search of Marty. She knew there would be no problem using the cabin. Ever since her parents were killed, the Ryder’s have been so good to her. They knew how hard it was for her to be left alone in the world and would do anything to make her happy. Cynthia was so thankful she had such wonderful people to care for her.

An hour later Cynthia and Justin were sitting in the café across from the agency having lunch. They were starting to make their plans for the weekend.

“Thanks for helping me, Cynthia. I really appreciate this,” Justin offered. He was getting so excited for the weekend.

“Anytime, Justin. You’re a good friend and you know I’d do anything to make Brian happy. I was so worried about him when he was still living at home. I could see how miserable he was with his parents. I’m glad your parents took him in. I sleep better at night knowing he’s safe with you,” Cynthia said, as tears built up in her eyes thinking about how Brian’s parents had hurt him.

“I know. Once I saw the way Mr. Kinney was treating Brian, I knew I couldn’t let him go back there. I’m just happy my parents agreed to my suggestion. I don’t know what I would have done if Brian was sent away. I don’t think I could live without him,” Justin said, with a look of love in his eyes.

“Wow! You must really love him.” Cynthia observed with a touch of jealousy. She wished she could find a love like that and was thrilled that Brian had found it with Justin.

“You have no idea. But enough about that. Let’s start planning this weekend. I’ll need to go shopping for food. The cabin does have a kitchen, right?” Justin asked, wondering how rustic the place would be.

“Yes. It’s a very modern cabin with everything you’ll need for a romantic getaway. In fact, Marty used to take his wife there all the time before I moved in with them. It even has a hot tub on the back deck. Trust me. Brian will know how much you care. Get some food, lots of candles…I have an idea. Daphne and I can follow you up. We’ll help you set up and when you go to pick up Brian we will stay behind and finish up the last minute details. When you get close to the cabin again you can call my cell. We’ll light the candles for you and sneak away before you get there. When Brian walks in and sees all the candles, some wine chilling, soft music playing in the background, he’ll be blown away. What do you think?” Cynthia asked, excited about helping out her two friends.

“I think you’re wonderful, Cynthia. Thank you so much for helping me with this. I owe you one,” Justin replied. He was imagining Brian’s reaction to his surprise and couldn’t help the smile that broke out at the thoughts he was having.

“You don’t owe me anything, but if you would happen to meet a really great straight guy at school this year, you could point him in my direction. As much as I love you and Brian, hanging out with gay guys isn’t doing much for my social life,” Cynthia teased.

“Anything for you, Cynthia,” Justin laughed, knowing that she was teasing him. He would make sure to do something special for her to show his appreciation.

By the time Cynthia and Justin had returned to work, they had all their plans worked out and all that was left was clueing in Daphne on what they planned to do, and the shopping, which Justin was going to do early Friday morning after dropping Brian off at work. He didn’t want to take a chance of Brian figuring out what he was planning to do, especially if he came across a bag filled with candles. The rest of the day was uneventful and Justin was happy when 5:00 came and it was time to go home. He met Brian in the parking garage and noticed the look of sheer excitement on his face. Justin hadn’t talked to him all day since Brian was out of the office with Ryder all afternoon observing the meetings that Ryder had with clients. He knew that something big must have happened and couldn’t wait to hear the news.

“What are you so happy about? You’re beaming,” Justin asked.

“I had such a great afternoon. Ryder let me participate in the meetings and give my thoughts on some of the accounts. He was so impressed that he’s going to the school next week when they open and talk to them about my working there under his supervision in the afternoons as a sort of vocational program. It would mean that I would go to school in the mornings to get the credits I need to graduate and then work for the rest of the day, obtaining credits for the experience I get from my job. He said that a lot of seniors do things like that these days, learning their trade while still in high school. I would still have to go to college, but I could be learning a lot of what I need to know before even starting college. Then next summer, while working, I could be making enough to keep me afloat during the school year. I’m so excited!” Brian exclaimed, feeling as if his life was really beginning.

“That’s great, Brian! I am so happy for you!” Justin cheered as he threw his arms around Brian before jumping back once he remembered where they were.

Brian knew why Justin pulled back, but didn’t care. He was too excited and wanted to share his good fortune with his boyfriend. He pulled Justin into his arms and kissed him deeply, oblivious to his surroundings. He loved the warmth of Justin’s mouth and relished in the way he could make the boy quiver with excitement. The kiss lasted until the two had to come up for air. Justin recovered first.

“Brian. We have to be careful. The last thing we need is for someone to see us. Ryder might not be too happy if he knew that we were together.” Justin voiced his concerns. He was worried that if their boss found out that Brian was gay, he might try to back out of the deal he made with Brian.

“Don’t worry about it, Justin. Ryder and I had a long talk today and he knows I’m gay. I didn’t want to have to hide for the rest of my life. He was okay with it,” Brian explained, enjoying the shocked look on the blonde’s face.

“You told him about us?” Justin asked in disbelief.

“No. I told him about me. It’s not my place to out you to your boss. I just told him I was involved with a very special person. The rest is none of his business,” Brian explained with a chuckle. He knew that Justin was still a little unsure about anyone finding out that he was gay so he decided to keep that part of the story to himself.

“A very special person? Me?” Justin asked.

“Of course, you. Who else would I be talking about? Have I told you lately how much I love you?” Brian whispered into Justin’s ear, aware of the power he had over Justin when he spoke words of love.

“Not since this morning, but it’s always nice to hear. I love you too, Brian. More than you’ll ever know,” Justin whispered back, overcome with emotion. He couldn’t believe how close he came to losing what he and Brian had. It made him more aware of how much the boy meant to him. He would do anything to protect what they had.

“Well how about we make a quick stop at our special place and we can show each other just how much we care?” Brian suggested, feeling the familiar tightening in his groin.

“Okay, but we don’t have much time. My mother called and my grandparents are there. They drove Molly back for my mom and are staying for dinner. The most we have is about fifteen minutes. My mom asked us not to be late.” Justin could hear the disappointment in his own voice. He wanted to be able to get lost with Brian, but didn’t want to upset his mother after the way she was so great the past weekend.

“Well, let’s get going then. We have work to do!” Brian exclaimed as he jumped into the car. As hard as he was for the blond, he didn’t think it would take long to find release with his boyfriend.

After a quick stop at the lake, which resulted in two incredible blow jobs, they made it home just in time for dinner. Jennifer could see the look of contentment on their faces and was once again startled by the love the two boys shared. The conversation at dinner revolved around Brian’s news and everyone was thrilled about the opportunity Ryder was offering. The evening went by fast and everyone was in their beds by 10:00. The house was quiet.

Justin waited until he was sure that his mother was asleep before sneaking into Brian’s room. He wasn’t planning on going back on his word to his mother. There was just something he needed to tell Brian that he didn’t say earlier. He crept into the room and was once again overcome with the love he had for Brian.

Brian heard the door open and knew who was coming by the chill that ran down his spine every time Justin entered a room.

“Brian? I just wanted to tell you how proud I am of you. Even though you didn’t have the greatest childhood, you managed to overcome all the bullshit and plan your future the way that you want it. I have no doubt that you’ll have a wonderful life ahead of you,” Justin said with tears in his eyes.

“No, Justin, we’ll have a wonderful life ahead of us. Everything I’ve done since the day you walked into the agency has been for us. You’re my future. No matter what happens in life, as long as I have you by my side, it’ll all be okay.” Brian’s voice cracked with emotion at his words. He never had anyone tell him how proud they were until Justin came into his life and he was still shocked by the effect those words had on him. To think that he almost threw away everything he had because of the people who called themselves parents.

“God, I love you!” Justin exclaimed as he attacked Brian’s mouth with all the passion he felt at the sweet words Brian had offered. He pulled back moments later, before they both forgot their promise and gave in to desire.

“You better get out of here before your mom catches us in a compromising position. I want you so much right now that I just might forget all about that promise we made to your mother and make love to you until we both can’t walk,” Brian chuckled, watching Justin blush even in the dimly lit room.

“I’m going, I’m going. I just wanted you to know how proud I am of you. I’ll see you in the morning. Love you,” Justin said before placing a soft kiss on Brian’s warm lips and walking out.

“Love you, too,” Brian whispered to Justin’s retreating back. He fell asleep with a smile on his face, realizing he had never been so happy in his life.

The rest of the week went by quickly and Justin was anxious for Friday to come so he could get Brian alone in Ryder’s cabin. He told his mother of his plans and even though she wasn’t really happy about the two of them going away for the weekend, she agreed to let them go after Justin assured her that they would be okay. On Friday morning, Justin got up and gave Brian a ride to work, knowing he had to go back home to pack for them both before picking Cynthia up.

“So what do you have planned for your day off?” Brian asked, sensing that Justin had something planned that he wasn’t telling him about. Brian figured it was a shopping trip since his birthday was the next day.

“Oh, nothing much. Cynthia and I are going to do a little school shopping, but don’t worry. I’ll be here to pick you up at five. Just make sure you get out on time. We have plans for dinner,” Justin explained, worried that Brian would offer to stay late like he usually did on Fridays.

“Oh? What plans are they?” Brian asked with his tongue-in-cheek reaction.

“Just dinner with Cynthia and Daphne. Nothing special,” Justin replied casually, wanting to play down dinner.

“I’ll be here ready and waiting, Sunshine,” Brian assured him before giving Justin a quick kiss and hopping out of the car.

Justin, Cynthia, and Daphne spent the day driving to the cabin and getting everything ready. Justin was very happy with the cabin and couldn’t wait to see Brian’s reaction when he walked in and saw all the candles lit, dinner on the table, and found out that they had the place to themselves for the whole weekend. By the time he arrived back at Ryder’s he was so excited, it was hard to keep the surprise to himself.

“Hey, Sunshine. Did you have fun shopping today?” Brian asked after kissing Justin hello.

“It was a great day. I’ll tell you all about it later. Just sit back and relax. We have a little bit of a drive ahead of us to get to dinner,” Justin replied as he drove towards the interstate. He could see the look of confusion on Brian’s face and couldn’t help but chuckle to himself. He sat back and began the long journey back to the cabin.

The two boys made small talk for the rest of the drive with Brian trying on occasion to get Justin to tell him where they were going. Once they were about a block away, Justin took out his cell phone and called Cynthia, which confused Brian even more.

“Hey Cyn, it’s me. I am on Butler street now…okay…I will…thanks…talk to you later,” Justin said as Cynthia once again wished him luck. He looked over at Brian after closing his cell phone and laughed out loud at the look on his face.

“Okay, Sunshine. Tell me what’s going on,” Brian demanded. He was not enjoying being left in the dark.

“Hang on, Brian. We’ll be there in a few minutes,” Justin told him, smiling at Brian’s reaction.

They drove a few more minutes and Justin pulled up outside the cabin, relieved to see Daphne’s car was already gone. The last thing he wanted was to have them here when Brian went inside.

“Come on, Brian. Let’s go inside,” Justin suggested as he got out of the car.

Brian was slower to get out, wondering what exactly Justin had planned for the night. He met Justin at the front of the car and allowed himself to be led inside. What he saw when he entered the cabin took his breath away. There had to be at least 20 lit candles spread throughout the room. The table was set for two with two tall candles sitting in the center. He could see a bottle of wine chilling in one of those wine chillers. Soft music was playing in the small room and Brian was overcome by emotion at all Justin had gone through to make the evening special. Words failed him as he pulled Justin into a tight embrace.

“I wanted to do something special for you. This is Ryder’s cabin. We have it for the weekend. Happy birthday, Brian,” Justin said softly, loving the feel of Brian’s arms around him.

“Thank you, Sunshine. This is the best birthday I’ve ever had,” Brian whispered, his voice cracking with emotion.

“Well, let’s eat before the food gets cold. You’ll have plenty of time to thank me later,” Justin promised as he led Brian to the table.

They ate their dinner in a comfortable silence. Justin sensed that Brian needed time to let the evening sink in. Once they were done, Justin did the dishes and cleaned up the kitchen while Brian looked around. The sun had completely set and the candles gave the room a soft glow. Checking out the master bedroom, Brian was pleased to see that the bed looked warm and inviting. He couldn’t wait to get his blond boy under the covers. He slowly pulled open the night table drawer and wasn’t surprised to see plenty of condoms and lube inside. Yes, this was definitely the best birthday ever.

Once Justin finished cleaning the kitchen, he went around the room and blew out all the candles and grabbed the lighter to light the ones they set up in the bedroom. He turned the music up a bit and made his way to the bedroom, surprised to find Brian naked and waiting for him.

“A little eager, aren’t you?” Justin laughed as he lit the candles. He could see his hands shaking as he held the lighter and knew it wasn’t from fear, but anticipation. Once the candles were lit, he removed his clothes and joined his boyfriend on the large bed.

“I just can’t wait to show you my appreciation. Come here beautiful,” Brian coaxed, unable to wait any longer to have Justin in his arms.

Their lips came together and the sparks flew the minute they were joined. Brian opened his mouth when he felt Justin’s tongue seeking entry and the kiss deepened as they rolled around, their hands exploring every inch of each other. Brian felt Justin roll him on his back and knew what he was planning. That thought caused Brian to become harder then he ever was before. Ever since their conversation last weekend, all Brian could think about was having Justin inside him and now that the time was here, he was having a hard time controlling his feelings.

Justin pushed Brian onto his back and covered his body with feather light kisses, wanting to give Brian as much pleasure as he could. He was a little nervous about taking the lead, but knew that Brian would be patient with him. He ran his tongue down Brian’s neck and across his shoulder before taking each nipple into his mouth and sucking softly. After a few moments he worked his way down further, dipping his tongue into Brian’s bellybutton while grabbing his shaft and tugging gently. He could hear Brian’s soft moans and it gave Justin the courage to continue. He continued to place soft kisses down the hips and thighs, bypassing the leaking cock standing at attention.

Brian was lost in the feelings that Justin was causing, moaning at the sheer passion that having the boy’s mouth on his body was creating. When Justin passed his cock without giving any attention to the throbbing member, Brian thought he would die from need. He was so lost that he was startled when Justin started to roll Brian onto his stomach. Knowing what was coming next, he rolled over without argument and waited for the pleasure he knew he was about to receive. Justin did not surprise him when he felt the blonde’s fingers gently pull him apart. The anticipation was almost more than Brian could bear and he let out a huge sigh when he felt a warm tongue touch his quivering hole.

Justin rolled Brian over to gain access to his ass and was surprised at the passion he felt at the thought of tasting his lover. Pulling his cheeks apart, Justin wasted no time in dipping his tongue in and tasting the essence of Brian. Remembering everything that Brian had ever done to his body, Justin knew exactly what to do to give his boyfriend pleasure and immediately went about his task, enjoying the moans that were escaping from the body on the bed. He proceeded to dip his tongue in and out of the tight hole, making sure to be as gentle as possible. He knew there was going to be some pain once he trust himself into the waiting hole and wanted to give as much pleasure as possible before the time came to make love. Pulling back a little, Justin reached for the lube that he placed in the drawer earlier and spread a generous amount on his fingers before slipping one inside gently. He felt Brian stiffen at the intrusion and gave the boy time to adjust to the new sensation. Once he felt the muscles relax, Justin started sliding his finger in and out slowly, anxious to be inside, but wanting the moment to last forever.

Brian stiffened at the intrusion of Justin’s finger in his hole and tried to relax so the boy could continue preparing him. He couldn’t wait to feel Justin inside of him and was dizzy with anticipation. He moaned when Justin added a second finger, but soon felt only pleasure at being finger fucked by his lover. For a brief moment, he wondered why he never allowed this to happen before, but then realized that he knew the answer to that question. He was waiting for the right person to give him the experience he was now enjoying. He was waiting for Justin. Not being able to stand the torture anymore, Brian lifted his head so Justin could hear his words.

“Justin, I’m ready. I want you inside of me. Make love to me, please,” Brian begged with a mixture of emotions.

“Anything for you,” Justin replied as he rolled Brian over and brought his legs up on his shoulders. He reached for a condom and rolled it on his throbbing cock, spreading on a generous amount of lube before placing himself at Brian’s waiting hole. He took a deep breath, hating the fact that he was about to cause his lover pain.

Brian sensed Justin’s apprehension and knew what the boy was thinking. He wanted to ease the blonde’s mind.

“It’s okay, Justin. I know it’s going to hurt a little, but I’m ready for this. It’s all I’ve been able to think about all week. I can’t wait to feel you inside of me,” Brian assured him, needing this moment more than his next breath.

“I love you, Brian,” Justin said as he looked down into Brian’s face, seeing nothing but a mixture of love and lust in those hazel eyes. Justin slowly started pushing into Brian, a little at a time, until he was buried deep inside the tight hole. He heard Brian groan at the intrusion and gave him time to adjust. Once he felt Brian relax, he began a slow rhythm of thrusts, loving the feel of being inside the tight warm hole. He felt Brian start matching his thrusts and picked up the pace, mumbling words of love as he went.

The pain was soon replaced by an intense fire and Brian looked up to see the love in Justin’s eyes. He reached for his leaking cock and began stroking it in rhythm with Justin’s thrusts. He knew it wasn’t going to be much longer until they reached orgasm and Brian wanted them to take the ride together.

“I’m almost there, Sunshine. Cum with me. I want us to jump off the edge together,” Brian said as he felt his balls tighten. He could feel himself going over the edge and threw his head back as he came with an amazing force. He wasn’t disappointed when Justin came with him, emptying his load into the condom. Brian knew at that moment that he was complete. Justin was exactly what he had been waiting for his whole life and he would do anything to make sure that they were together forever.

Justin felt Brian’s orgasm start and just that thought alone was enough to bring Justin to his own amazing climax. He collapsed on top of his lover, exhausted not only physically, but emotionally. There was no place else on this earth he wanted to be. After his breathing began to return, he slid out if Brian, disposed of the condom, and then grabbed the towel he had left by the bed to clean off Brian’s chest before snuggling up in the warm embrace waiting for him.

“Brian. I hope that was good for you. I have to admit that I was a little worried about this night. I know I learned from the best, but I wanted to make sure you enjoyed your first time,” Justin admitted sleepily, feeling himself ready to drift off to sleep.

“Justin, that was incredible. Everything I had hoped for and more. You were wonderful and my first time was perfect because it was with you. I love you,” Brian said, ready to drift off into a contented sleep.

“I love you, too,” Justin replied, drifting off to sleep with a smile on his face. His last thoughts were of the beautiful boy beside him.


End of part 19
9/1/03

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