Arms of Destiny

Chapter 14
 

The rest of the day sailed by smoothly. Brian couldn’t erase the smile on his face from the kiss he and Justin shared and his mood was obvious to Cynthia.

“So, Boss, what next?” She asked with a grin as she walked into his office without knocking.

“I’m working on a few new proposals I plan on making next week.” Brian explained.

“Not work. I’m talking about with Justin. What’s your next move?” She asked again, hoping he had a plan.

“Cynthia, Justin and I agreed to be friends. There is nothing more between us.” Brian told her, knowing that he wasn’t being completely truthful. He knew that there was something growing between them, he just didn’t know what it was yet so he needed to take things slow.

“You seemed to be more than just friends earlier. Come on, Brian, I see the way you two look at each other when you think no one’s looking. When are you both going to stop being stubborn and admit that you love each other? You are wasting time with your ‘I don’t believe in love’ mantra. Grab him before it’s too late.” Cynthia walked out of the office before giving Brian time to answer.

Brian sat back down at his desk, lost in thought. He couldn’t help but replay everything Cynthia said, over and over again. Could she be right? Could Justin still love him? His thoughts were interrupted when Justin appeared in the doorway.

“I just stopped to say goodnight. It’s well after 6:00, and I’m going to head home. Do you want anything from me before I go?” Justin asked.

‘Isn’t that a loaded question, Sunshine?’ Brian thought to himself before answering. “No, I’m finishing up, too. Are you going to be okay tonight?”

“I should be, but don’t worry. I have a place to go if I need it.” Justin replied, giving Brian one of his patented smiles.

“You’re always welcome. I guess I’ll see you in the morning. Later.” Brian said as he started cleaning off his desk.

“Later.” Justin called over his shoulder as he walked out the door. It had been a long weekend and all he wanted to do was to go home, take a hot shower, and go to bed. He just prayed to God that he was able to sleep. He couldn’t keep running to Brian every night, could he?

Brian spent his evening thinking about his relationship with Justin. They had agreed to be friends, but was that even possible? They already broke the friendship boundary when they slept together in Chicago, and the kiss they shared today was definitely not a kiss shared by friends. Brian knew that he needed to find a way to make things right with Justin, but he wasn’t sure how to go about it. This was all still new to him and he didn’t want to screw it up. Glancing at the clock, he realized it was almost midnight. He got up and started to turn off the lights when he heard the elevator stop on his floor. Knowing who was on the other side of the door, he made his way over to let Justin in.

“Hey…I…uh…” Justin stammered, embarrassed by his weakness.

“It’s okay, Justin. I was just getting ready for bed. Come on in.” Brian spoke softly, not wanting to make Justin feel anymore uncomfortable than he already was.

Justin gave Brian a slight smile before walking into the loft. He felt a little funny showing up at night even though Brian had assured him it was okay. He tried to stay away, telling himself he could get through the nightmares on his own, but he couldn’t do it. After he had gotten home from work he took a shower and fell into bed, exhausted from the emotions he had been experiencing the last few days. He woke up in a cold sweat around eleven, fear gripping him once again. He tried to calm down enough to fall back asleep, but the fear wouldn’t seem to go away. By 11:30 he found himself in his car on the way to the loft. Just being in the loft was enough to comfort his tormented mind.

Brian finished shutting off the lights and headed towards the bedroom, grabbing Justin’s hand as he went. He could feel his resistance and stopped, looking into Justin’s face for an explanation.

“Brian, maybe I should just sleep on the couch. I don’t want to intrude on your life. You’ve been so good to me through all of this and I don’t want to take advantage of you anymore.” Justin explained, wanting Brian to understand that he wasn’t trying to force himself on anyone.

“Justin, I told you before that I would be here for you if you needed me. You sleep better in the bed so why not just sleep there? It’s a big bed and I promise not to compromise your virtue.” Brian teased, trying to make Justin more comfortable. Seeing the doubt in the blue eyes, he took him by the hand again and led him into the room.

They undressed in silence, neither one of them sure what to say to diffuse the heat that was building between them. Once they climbed into bed, Justin found himself being taken into Brian’s arms. He enjoyed the warmth that spread through his body and tilted his head up to claim Brian’s mouth. The kiss that started out soft and gentle quickly turned into a hungry, passionate need that neither man could ignore. Justin felt Brian’s tongue run across his lips seeking entrance, and parted his lips in acceptance. As tongues dueled, hands began to roam, and Justin cried out in pleasure when Brian grabbed his cock and began stroking it in a steady rhythm. All thoughts of right and wrong were pushed away as Justin lost himself in the feelings Brian was creating in him.

Brian knew the minute Justin’s lips touched his he was going to loose all control. He ran his hand down Justin’s perfectly shaped body before reaching his already leaking cock. He began pumping the shaft up and down while gently forcing his tongue in the younger man’s mouth. No matter what was going on between them, nothing could mask the passion they felt for each other. Removing the underwear Justin wore to bed, Brian began kissing his way down the smooth chest, stopping to nibble on the hardened nipples, eliciting a moan from deep inside the younger man’s body. He continued the trail of kisses, stopping once again, this time at his throbbing cock. He ran his tongue lightly across the slit, lapping up the pre-cum that had escaped, before taking the entire member into his mouth. He could feel the tip hitting the back of his throat and moaned at the feeling of wholeness that engulfed him just from being with Justin again. He started bobbing his head up and down, stopping only long enough to wet two of his fingers, then continued his pace as he slowly slid first one finger, than another inside Justin’s tight hole. Feeling Justin tense at the sudden intrusion, he stilled his movements allowing the man a few moments of adjustment before he began a steady in and out rhythm that matched his mouth. He could hear whimpering coming from the younger man and basked in the glow that giving the other man pleasure gave to him.

Justin was completely submerged in the passion that Brian was causing him. He had never enjoyed being with anyone the way he did with Brian. In the four years he had been away, the few encounters he managed to have after what had happened to him, left him feeling empty and alone. Now he felt like he had finally come home. As he felt Brian pick up the pace, Justin knew that he was getting close. He needed to stop the man before he flew over the edge, wanting to save that experience for when Brian was buried deep inside of him.

“Brian,” He whimpered, finding it hard to speak.

Brian immediately stopped what he was doing and looked into Justin’s eyes. He was afraid that maybe he was pushing things too fast, and didn’t want to cause Justin any distress. “Is something wrong?”

“Yes. You are not inside of me.” Justin managed to say.

“I think that can be rectified.” Brian assured him as he withdrew his fingers and climbed up the bed, placing a gentle kiss on Justin swollen lips. He reached over and grabbed a condom and lube and quickly prepared himself. Taking Justin’s legs and placing them on his shoulders, Brian positioned himself at Justin’s entrance, pausing to look into the face that had haunted his dreams for too many years.

“Are you sure this is what you want?” Brian asked, wanting to make sure that Justin was ready for what was about to happen. They may have had one night together already, but that was due to a mixture of dancing, drinking, and reliving the old days. This night was different. If they continued there would be no turning back. Brian wouldn’t be able to let Justin go once they were joined again.

Justin looked deep into Brian’s eyes and knew what he was asking. He knew that their relationship was about to change, but was helpless to stop it. He needed Brian in his life and could never be content with just a friendship. Neither one of them knew what was going to happen in the future, but Brian was offering him something and Justin wasn’t about to refuse. “More than anything. I need to feel you inside of me.”

Brian leaned down and kissed Justin deeply as he slowly entered him. His senses were on overload at the feeling of being buried inside of Justin’s warm hole. After giving Justin a few moments, Brian began thrusting, feeling himself drifting closer and closer to climax. There was no doubt that he wouldn’t last long. He reached between their bodies and started stroking the leaking cock that was waiting there for him. Feeling the familiar tightening around his own cock, Brian picked up the pace and was rewarded by Justin moaning his name as his cocked exploded between them, causing Brian to fall over the edge in his own orgasm. He collapsed on Justin’s smaller frame from the sheer ecstasy he was feeling. They continued to hold each other for a few minutes until their breathing returned to a somewhat normal pace. Brian pulled out and rolled over to dispose of the condom before coming back and taking Justin into his arms. He felt the younger man’s body shaking and knew that if he looked, he would see tears in his eyes.

“Are you alright? Did I hurt you?” He asked in a panic he felt throughout his body. He would never forgive himself if he hurt Justin.

“No, you didn’t hurt me. I’m sorry, I guess I just missed you while I was away and it all came flooding back to me. Brian, what are we doing here?” Justin asked quietly. He knew Brian wasn’t one to talk about feelings, but he was so confused and wanted to try to understand what was happening between them.

Brian took a deep breath. He didn’t really want to talk about what was happening, but he knew that making a joke would just push Justin away and that was the last thing he wanted to do. “I missed you, too. I’m not really sure what’s going on with us, but it’s obvious that we have crossed the line of friendship, and I’m not sorry we did. How about if we just take things slow and see what happens. We have a lot to work out, but there’s no rush. We’re not going anywhere, right?” Brian could hear a catch in his voice at his question and hated the insecurity he was feeling, but he needed reassurance that Justin wasn’t going to run away again.

“No, we’re not going anywhere. I’ve done all the running I’m going to do.” Justin replied, searching in Brian’s eyes for understanding. What he saw caused a rush of pleasure to course through his body. He saw love staring back at him. Brian may not be able to say the words, but he said it all in the way he was looking down at him.

“Glad to hear it, Sunshine. Now how about we get some sleep. I think you need it.” Brian said, needing to pull back a bit.

“Yes, Dad.” Justin joked, sensing Brian’s need to change the subject. For once he was okay with Brian’s lack of communication skills, because he learned everything he needed to know when he looked into his eyes moments ago.

“Watch it, Blondie, before I spank you.” Brian tried to sound like he was mad, but knew he fell short by the way Justin laughed at him.

“Promises, promises. I’ll hold you to that another time.” Justin chuckled, reaching up to give Brian a light kiss. “Goodnight, Brian.”

“Goodnight, Sunshine.” Brian replied. He rolled Justin over, spooning him from behind and drifted off to sleep feeling happier that he had ever felt before.


End of Part 14
10/21/03

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