Angst Drabbles
Filling the Space
Justin’s departure didn’t change anything for Brian. While
he was mooning over his fiddler, Brian spent his nights dancing, drinking,
getting high, and fucking, just like he always had. But now he didn’t have to
worry about the disapproving wife at home.
And Justin had nothing to do with the phone call he’d just made. Negotiations
had been simple; Brian knew exactly what he wanted and was willing to pay. He
was simply getting his needs met as efficiently as possible. It was that some
nights all the blow jobs in the world didn’t make up for an empty bed.
* * *
Echo
Debbie opened the door, still laughing. “Hey,
Vic,” she yelled. “You won’t believe what happened...” Then her voice trailed
off as she remembered. The house suddenly seemed so empty, the silence crushing.
She almost wished for Christmas music, but she’d packed up all the decorations
after the disastrous party, and no hula-dancing, singing Santa greeted her.
Quietly shutting the door behind her, Debbie hung up her coat and made her way
to the empty kitchen where no one was waiting for her with fresh coffee. “What
I’d give, Little Brother,” Debbie whispered, “to be wiping your ass right now.”
* * *
Adrift
At times, life in New York was nothing but a series of rejections. When it got
bad, Justin turned off his phone and hid out in his studio, spending hours
staring at his paintings, cataloguing faults and second guessing his choices.
He’d never given a shit what anyone thought of his work, but on his own, with so
much riding on success, Justin questioned everything.
Justin went days without talking to another person. Brian was miles away, his
touch a distant memory. Surrounded by his failures, Justin found it surprisingly
easy to forget what it felt like to be loved.
* * *
Discovery
Emmett watched Ted and Blake finally get it
right, and while he was happy for them, he still resented Ted for finding his
partner while Emmett seemed destined to be alone. Drew was gone, and Emmett knew
in heart they wouldn’t celebrate his twenty-first birthday together.
He feared Ted had been his best chance for happiness, if not for the drugs and
the false euphoria that held so much promise. Ted willingly threw away the life
they were building. Emmett had never felt anything like that, but he clutched
the vial of crystal and decided it was time he did.
* * *
Swallowing Your Pride
At first, Canada was the fresh start they needed. Then Melanie watched Lindsay
flirt with JR’s teacher, and it was Sam fucking Auerbach all over again. When
she snuck home just before dawn, reeking of his cologne, Melanie wanted to send
her away, but she couldn’t. Lindsay would run home to Pittsburgh with the kids.
Brian would help her because he always did. Michael would too, just for the
chance of having JR in the same city.
No one would help Melanie. She loved her kids enough to pretend she was asleep
and pray for the strength to survive this.
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